Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Monday, November 4, 2013

The Curious Case of My Feeling for Manchester United

I fell in a love a few times in my life. But the love that hit me the most and, somehow, really consistent is the one that i feel about football.

Sepakbola adalah permainan yang sederhana. 22 pemain dilempar ke satu lapangan, rebutan satu bola, sama-sama usaha buat bikin bolanya masuk ke gawang. Yang paling banyak, menang.

Sederhana.

Sayangnya, seperti banyak hal sederhana lain di dunia ini, love complicates all this.

Hal yang paling inevitable saat seseorang mulai mencintai sesuatu adalah... Expectation.

It sucks. But that's what you have in mind everytime you chose (or not) to fall in love, you'll expect.

Mau ada jutaan orang yang ngasi warning biar ekspektasi jangan terlalu tinggi, tetap aja. It's there.

Dengan timnas Indonesia, ekspektasi ini sudah di-arrange dengan sempurna ke level terendah. Jadi mau hasilnya gimana juga, it'll be above expectation.

Dengan Manchester United, it's the whole other story.

I'm a shameless glory hunter. I like Manchester United because, well, they win.

United dan menang itu nyaris selalu ada di dalam kalimat yang sama semenjak gw menyukai tim yang satu ini.

Well. Memang tetap ada masa-masa buruk sih. Misalnya pas Arsenal dengan Thierry Henry-nya melaju super kencang. Atau pas Jose Mourinho baru awal-awal datang di Chelsea.

Tapi selalu ada satu poin yang bikin gw tenang dan percaya: Sir Alex Ferguson.

Musim ini: he's gone. Vanished.

Fergie selalu jadi pegangan kuat gw untuk hal-hal buruk yang terjadi di United. Di kepala gw, selalu ada pembelaan: "Fergie will fix this."

Sekarang ya gak ada lagi.

Jadi, setting ekspektasi gw untuk United di musim ini udah cukup rendah. Dan tim ini masih sukses tampil lebih rendah dari itu. Luar biasa.

It struck me really hard the last weekend.

Sebelum United tanding lawan Fulham, i look at the table dan... Menang pun United akan tetap stuck di posisi 8.

Lebih parah lagi, pas nonton Arsenal vs Liverpool. Gw sadar bahwa inilah yang dirasakan fans 2 tim tersebut saat nonton United vs City atau United vs Chelsea di beberapa musim terakhir.

They're the title contender.

United? Nonton di bawah, berharap ada yang terpeleset, sehingga (mungkin) bisa sneak in masuk ke posisi 4 besar. Mungkin inilah kenapa Arsene Wenger sering bilang masuk 4 besar rasanya kayak menang trofi.

But is it made me love United less?

Sadly, No.

Sebenarnya, Ini adalah waktu yang sangat menyenangkan untuk menjadi fans United. The frustration, the bad results, the insults.

It's fun.

Sangat lucu melihat berapa banyak fans Arsenal yang berharap United terpeleset saat melawan Fulham. Padahal beda poin sama tim mereka udah amat sangat jauh. Gak relevan. We're not on their league.

Sangat lucu juga melihat banyak fans United yang udah teriak-teriak ngomel ke David Moyes (Bahkan saat United menang).

He's the manager. Put the freakin faith in him. Walaupun, harus diakui, beberapa kali gw pengen nge-chants "You don't know what you're doing" ke doi.

But i don't want him out. I'm curious. How far can this United team go with him. Bisa terbang melayang jauh ke angkasa atau terpuruk dalam ke dasar neraka.

Either way, it's fun.

So... I'm excited. 

Apa yang dimulai dengan rasa suka/cinta/sayang karena menang, sekarang berubah jadi rasa suka/cinta/sayang karena...

I don't know.

Sometimes in life, there's something that you just can't explain. This is, probably, one of them.



Friday, November 2, 2012

Love Is That Kind Of Thing...

The kind of thing that makes you singing all day long, smiling all month long, and shining all year long.

The kind of thing that makes you cranky all day long, crying all month long, and gloomy all year long.

The kind of thing that makes you crave for more. Every second, every minute, every hour, and every day.

The kind of thing that makes you screaming for less. Every second, every minute, every hour, and every day.

The kind of thing that makes you insecure, nervous, excited. All at the same time. All at the same mind.

The kind of thing that makes you realizes that gravity actually existed. And we can't resist it. Even for a bit.

The kind of thing that makes you fall. And enjoying the fall. And addicted to the fall.

The kind of thing that makes you hurt. Yet still coming back for more. And more. And more. And more.

The kind of thing that makes you love your life.

The kind of thing that makes you hate your life.

Love is that kind of thing.

And much more.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Women's Mind = Treasure Map?

“Scientist has worked years and finally found out what women want.

And then they changed their mind.
” -@sickipediabot

Gw ngebaca tweet itu beberapa waktu yang lalu dan langsung merespon “SO TRUE!”

Well. Sebenarnya sih gw lebih suka nyamain Woman’s Mind itu dengan Treasure Map. Peta Harta Karun.

Kenapa? Karena mau se-complicated apapun, kalo akhirnya sukses dipecahin, bakalan so damn worth it.

Mari kita coba lihat kondisi-kondisi di bawah ini:

Pas PDKT:
Lo: “Selamat Pagi… Have a nice day yaa…”
Cewek: “Iya… You too…”
Lo: “Kamu udah makan siang?”
Cewek: “Udaaah. Kamu jangan lupa makan juga yaa…”

End result: Nothing.

Itu artinya: “You just being PR’d!”
Dulu dikenal dengan ‘She’s just not that into you.’
Energy wasted to figure that out: MUCH!

Pas Jadian #1

Lo: “Sayang, kamu mau makan di mana?”
Cewek: “Terserah kamu aja deh.”
Lo: “Oke. Hokben aja ya…”
Cewek: “Gak mau. Lagi gak pengen makanan jepang.”
Lo: “Yaudah. Sushi Tei.”
Cewek: “Itu juga makanan Jepang kan?”
Lo: “Err… Fish and Co.?”
Cewek: “Gak mau.”
Lo: “Terus kamu maunya makan apa?”
Cewek: “Terserah.”
Lo: “……………….”

Kadang gw suka berpikir kalo makhluk Tuhan yang satu ini gak ngerti apa arti sebenarnya dari kata “Terserah”.

Pas jadian #2
“Sayang. Yang biru apa yang coklat nih dress-nya?”
“Yang biru bagus deh.”
“Masa sih? Kayaknya aku cocok sama yang coklat lho!”
“Yaudah. Coklat boleh juga.”
“Tapi biru juga bagus…”
“…………”
“Eh. Beli yang ungu aja deh!”
“…………”

Imagine what they will do when choosing something much more important like… A groom?

Pas Jadian #3
Lo: “Sayang lagi di mana? Udah makan?”
Cewek: “Posesif banget sih nanya-nanya? Terus kenapa kalo aku udah makan?”
Lo: “…………….”
*beberapa waktu kemudian”
Cewek: “Kamu kok gak nyariin aku?? Udah gak peduli yah???”
Lo: “……………”

Bahkan rollercoaster manapun di dunia ini masih kalah ngeri.

Pas mau putus.
Cewek: “Kamu udah beda! Aku gak mau lanjutin lagi. PUTUS!”
Lo: “Yaudah…”
Cewek: HAH??? YAUDAH??? Kamu emang pengen kita putus ya?? Aku tuh gak pengen tau sebenarnya. Huhuhuhu.”
Lo: “Lho??? ……………………..r#$%#&”

Ah. The Drama.

Beberapa dari kita pernah mengalami hal kayak gitu. Salah satu-nya kalo beruntung, kalo sial ya semuanya.

Yang belum… Well… Antara lo SANGAT beruntung (MARRY HER! NOW!) atau ya emang jomblo seumur idup aja.

Tapi apapun itu, yang jelas mereka special.

Buktinya ada Ladies Parking, Menteri Peranan Wanita, Jatah 30% Kursi di DPR, Tempat Khusus di Kereta Api sama Busway. :p (Come on girls, isn’t it a bit TOO much?)

On the serious note.
They ARE Special.
Once you cracked the code.
Once you finished the treasure map.
You’ll find everything worth’s the sacrifice. 
Seriously.

But then again.
They STILL can change the location of the treasure on the map and you have to start all over again! :D

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Lost and Found

I lost a lot of things in last few months.

A few months ago, I lost my phone. With a lot of numbers, friends, and memories in it.

Then I lost my laptop. All the work I have in the last year, now vanished into the thin air.

Then I lost the TV Show that I’ve been working on for the last six months.

And I also lost some hearts in the process. Something that I thought I had before, now it’s broken into pieces, and also vanished. Nowhere to be found.

So, what did I found? Nothing.

Not yet maybe.

But I still believe, behind all these lost things, lies something –or someone- waiting to be found.

Someday.

Monday, April 18, 2011

This Is A Curhat Post

You've been warned.

Post ini isinya curhatan penuh kelabilan dan kegalauan.

If you've read me galau/labil/nyampah in twitter or plurk or anywhere else and feel the urge to vomit, please don't read this one.

i'm on my weirdest moment right now.
feeling-wise.

i don't know what to feel, i don't know what to do, i don't know what to expect.

yes. i've signed for this rollercoaster.
when i'm entering it, there's a huge sign posted there in the front door.
so, i know one way or another, this kind of thing will happen.

well, i entered it anyway. i'm enjoying it, to be honest.
...enjoying it too far perhaps.
in fact, i love being inside it.

but there's moment like this.
there's always moment like this when i feel like i need the earth to eat me and sunk me alive.

first punch, i can get up. second punch, i'm hang on to it. third one? everyone's has a limit, aren't they?

so now, i'm laying on the ground, feeling hurt, feeling un-easy, feeling confused. and even a bit sick.

and sadly, it seems i'm the only one who felt this way for now.

i thought this was a game for two...

i need someone to pick me up. whether with words, or any little thing that mattered.

i know that i've made the mistakes. maybe one too many.
but, again, when you signed up for this, you know exactly this'll happen. and you agreed to face this together, as i am facing yours.

this blah-blah-blah post has gone everywhere. without even any clear point. you might as well call this a confused post.

this is a pointless-curhat-session of someone who's unstable enough to write anything clearly.

but of course, you've been warned.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Illusion

It's an illusion.

It can last a year, a day, a week, or a certain 29-days.

We can enjoy the illusion.

It's always beautiful, bright, full of good things.

But then again.

It was just an illusion.

It has an expiration date.

No matter how beautiful it is.

No matter how nice it is.

The thunder will hit us at some point.

The thunder called 'reality'.

When it comes, illusion has to take a bow. And say it's goodbye.

But there's nothing wrong having an illusion once. Or maybe twice. Or maybe more.

It's refreshing. Something to cherish of.

And when it's over. All's left is a memory.

Brutally beautiful.

Now, hey you reality. What do you offer me?

Monday, June 7, 2010

It's started with a stupidity.

I never drink any jesscool (gak. gw sama sekali tidak dibayar sedikitpun buat nulis ini merk. but i guess it'll means a lot started today...)

Tapi tiga biji sariawan yang tiba meng-invasi mulut jadi alesan yg cukup buat nyoba minum obat panas dalam.

And then, somebody told me: "Jesscool ajaa... Itu ngaruh lho sama aku..."

Jadi gw berpikir: oke, kenapa gak dicoba. I need some medicine anyway.

Akhirnya gw ngebeli satu kotak jesscool. Dan pas buka baru nyadar, kalo bentuknya tablet effervescent (bener gak ya spell nya? yah. gak penting)

Yg jelas itu tablet harus dimasukin ke air dingin, dibiarin ancur, terus diminum.

Dan dengan pengetahuan gw yg dangkal, gw pun ngelakuin itu. Air nya mula berubah trus ada buih2nya. I decided to drink it.

Ternyataa... tabletnya blom hancur sepenuhnya.

Oh dear GOD.

Nyangkutlah itu si jesscool tersayang di leher. Took me sekitar 4-5 gelas aer buat ngebuat itu tablet gak nyangkut lagi.

It's a pure stupidity.

But then the nicest thing of the day happen.

Karena gw ngerasa ini adalah hal bodoh yang akan sangat menyenangkan untuk diceritain, gw pun nelpon si 'somebody' yang nyaranin buat minum jesscool.

And it was my best decison by far.

Dari rencananya cuma mau laporan -dan sedikit bikin dia ngerasa bersalah- i ended up having a really nice, and of course stupid, conversation.

That was our first. From so many to comes, i hope. And it Felt amazingly great.

And it change the day from the laring -new word. means: Lame and Boring- one.

Into a good and memorable one.

Unfortunately, it have to end by another stupidity. Pulsa nya abis. --"

Eniweiiii.....

Here's the moral of the story.

Anything happen for a reason. Even a stupidity.

If i didn't unsuccessfully drinking that simple jesscool, i won't have those conversation.

The simple thing that brighten my day to the fullest.

Something that get me smile for hours. And even for days. If i look back and remember.

And something that makes me learn something new. About someone new. About someone important.

So let's move this ride on again, shall we?

I'm sure there will be plenty of stupidity that will come out and coloring our days...

Friday, June 4, 2010

A Simple Thing. A Simple Happiness.

Happiness can come from the simplest thing.

Cliche. Yet true.

Sometimes, you just see people smile at you.

A simple smile.

And, boom, you get as happy as if your birthday happens every day.

Sometimes, you talk with someone.

Just talk. Just a simple talk.

And boom. You just can't stop smiling for hours.

And sometimes,

You get to be together with the one you wanted to be.

This is when we wish the time could stop for a while.

The ride we're waiting for can be late for a while.

And the moment we spent. Could last as long as we wanted. Without having to see the period sign.

Simple wish.

Simple happiness.

That's all i need. And that's all i get.

From You.

My simplest form of happiness.


*Thanks for the inspiration to write again, You. Yes, You. :)

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

"4-Letter-Words"

LOVE!

okeh... awalnya si gw sedikit berharap ni blog akan jarang bgt ngomongin this 4-letter-words..
tp ternyata baru juga post ke 4, lgsg ngebahas deh..
mungkin karena ada sama nya ya, 4 huruf dan post ke-4... (gak penting, gak logis, gak usah dipercaya... haha...)

what's wrong with this things ya? (terjemahan harfiah: ada apa dengan cinta?? yeah... u can start singing now....)

have u ever been in love?

pasti lah... everybody's ever been in love at least once in life...

tp kan bentuk nya beda-beda yah...
ada yang indaaaaaahhhhhh (YUP! dengan banyak 'A' dan 'H') banget...
ada yang menyenangkan...
ada yang nyusahin...
ada yang ngeberatin...
ada yang bikin depresi...
ada yang bikin idup lebih berati...

ya begitulah...

my point is mau bentuknya kayak apa juga..
love is love...

setiap orang bakal punya pengalaman yang beda-beda...
dan setiap orang punya hak buat ngasi label ke si 4-letter-word ini...

tp quotes nya coelho yang gw baca kemarin (thanks to fani..) cukup bikin gw ketusuk...

"... what is happiness?
Love, they tell me. but love doesn't bring and never has brought happiness. On the contrary, it's a constant state anxiety, a battlefield; it's sleepless nights, asking ourselves all the time if we're doing the right thing. Real love is composed with ecstasy and agony."

THERE!!
it's true... really really true...

dan final words nya: "Real love is composed with ecstasy and agony"

true again..

so, do we really realize that when we say "i wanna find my true love...."
or even worse, "well.. this is my true love..."

that means we're gonna stuck with ecstasy and agony....


well.. some people will say it will be worth it...
gak papalah kita menderita, asal bisa dapet cinta nya kita...

DUH!!
i dont think how that suppose to be...

but again... in Love, Logic really rare on taking it's part...

sering nya si 'Feel' ini...

gak salah juga si..
karena ya emang gak ada yang bener, gak ada yang salah...

and u know what?
kalo gak ada si '4-Letter-Words' ini, hidup gak akan kayak gini...

gak bakalan ada orang yang cerita panjang lebar sama temen nya, yang actually udah muak banget...
gak bakalan ada orang yang curhat pake status FB, Plurk, Twitter, etc... (contoh nyata: GW..)
gak bakalan muncul puisi-puisi, lagu-lagu, quotes-quotes romantis yang bikin sebagian orang melayang-layang dan sebagian lagi muntah-muntah...
gak bakalan ada cerita kapal patah jadi dua yang ditonton sampe jutaan orang...
gak bakalan ada kasus ngeliat dua orang berantem (atau make out, u pick,,,) di public places dan disebar ke orang-orang...
gak bakalan ada infotainment yang terus masuk ke idup orang...

and simply, toko coklat, bunga, dan aksesoris bakal kehilangan at least setengah pelanggan nya... haha,,,

all of that, and so many more, bakal gak ada kalo si '4-letter-words' ini gak ada...

our world will be a better world?
at some point, maybe yes...

but one thing for sure, it will be sooo much more boring compare to what we have today...

Jadiii...
mari kita nikmati saja si '4-letter-words' ini...
sambil nunggu ato nyari dia ke hidup kita...
and then stuck with it...