Illusion

It's an illusion.

It can last a year, a day, a week, or a certain 29-days.

We can enjoy the illusion.

It's always beautiful, bright, full of good things.

But then again.

It was just an illusion.

It has an expiration date.

No matter how beautiful it is.

No matter how nice it is.

The thunder will hit us at some point.

The thunder called 'reality'.

When it comes, illusion has to take a bow. And say it's goodbye.

But there's nothing wrong having an illusion once. Or maybe twice. Or maybe more.

It's refreshing. Something to cherish of.

And when it's over. All's left is a memory.

Brutally beautiful.

Now, hey you reality. What do you offer me?

when the dreams crashed...

It's just faded away.

My dream.

The door's closed.

And i had no one to blame.

Except myself.

The door shut. Right in front of my face.

And the dream lost.

Hit me badly.

Slap me hard.

Time wasted. Yet lesson learned.

Hope this is just another way of Him.

To lead me somewhere else.

Somewhere different. Somewhere better. Somewhere nicer.

It's started with a stupidity.

I never drink any jesscool (gak. gw sama sekali tidak dibayar sedikitpun buat nulis ini merk. but i guess it'll means a lot started today...)

Tapi tiga biji sariawan yang tiba meng-invasi mulut jadi alesan yg cukup buat nyoba minum obat panas dalam.

And then, somebody told me: "Jesscool ajaa... Itu ngaruh lho sama aku..."

Jadi gw berpikir: oke, kenapa gak dicoba. I need some medicine anyway.

Akhirnya gw ngebeli satu kotak jesscool. Dan pas buka baru nyadar, kalo bentuknya tablet effervescent (bener gak ya spell nya? yah. gak penting)

Yg jelas itu tablet harus dimasukin ke air dingin, dibiarin ancur, terus diminum.

Dan dengan pengetahuan gw yg dangkal, gw pun ngelakuin itu. Air nya mula berubah trus ada buih2nya. I decided to drink it.

Ternyataa... tabletnya blom hancur sepenuhnya.

Oh dear GOD.

Nyangkutlah itu si jesscool tersayang di leher. Took me sekitar 4-5 gelas aer buat ngebuat itu tablet gak nyangkut lagi.

It's a pure stupidity.

But then the nicest thing of the day happen.

Karena gw ngerasa ini adalah hal bodoh yang akan sangat menyenangkan untuk diceritain, gw pun nelpon si 'somebody' yang nyaranin buat minum jesscool.

And it was my best decison by far.

Dari rencananya cuma mau laporan -dan sedikit bikin dia ngerasa bersalah- i ended up having a really nice, and of course stupid, conversation.

That was our first. From so many to comes, i hope. And it Felt amazingly great.

And it change the day from the laring -new word. means: Lame and Boring- one.

Into a good and memorable one.

Unfortunately, it have to end by another stupidity. Pulsa nya abis. --"

Eniweiiii.....

Here's the moral of the story.

Anything happen for a reason. Even a stupidity.

If i didn't unsuccessfully drinking that simple jesscool, i won't have those conversation.

The simple thing that brighten my day to the fullest.

Something that get me smile for hours. And even for days. If i look back and remember.

And something that makes me learn something new. About someone new. About someone important.

So let's move this ride on again, shall we?

I'm sure there will be plenty of stupidity that will come out and coloring our days...

A Simple Thing. A Simple Happiness.

Happiness can come from the simplest thing.

Cliche. Yet true.

Sometimes, you just see people smile at you.

A simple smile.

And, boom, you get as happy as if your birthday happens every day.

Sometimes, you talk with someone.

Just talk. Just a simple talk.

And boom. You just can't stop smiling for hours.

And sometimes,

You get to be together with the one you wanted to be.

This is when we wish the time could stop for a while.

The ride we're waiting for can be late for a while.

And the moment we spent. Could last as long as we wanted. Without having to see the period sign.

Simple wish.

Simple happiness.

That's all i need. And that's all i get.

From You.

My simplest form of happiness.


*Thanks for the inspiration to write again, You. Yes, You. :)

Rollercoaster...

let's talk about rollercoaster.
it's the ride that make your heart jumping upside down.
full of excitement, full of screaming...
scary sometimes, but also interesting at the same time...
a one package entertainment.

but there's one feeling people like to forget about this ride.
the feeling that can clearly happen.

numb.

u can easily get numb.
when u had soo many rollercoaster in your life.
or maybe even just one, but u used it just one too many.
u lost the enjoyment...
u lost the excitement...
and even u lost the 'scared' feeling that supposed to be there...
u can't feel a thing.
u just... numb.

that happen for sure.
if you didn't get the right rollercoaster.

But when it's right...
i bet u will never had enough...
no matter how often you ride it...
u keep ask for more.. more... and more...

at this point.
u got ur own rollercoaster.
take it,
ride it,
own it,
and never let it go for others...

STUPID!!

they said i'm stupid.

no.

i'm worse than that.

stupid means then dont know that they are doing the wrong things.

me?
i know.
i know this is stupid.
i know this is wrong.
i know this is hurt.

yet,
i'm doing this.

For the reason,
that will never be understood.

Let alone by anyone else,
even i dont understand it either.

so, what exactly that made me?

corat-coret malam hari...

OK.
Sebulan cuma satu post.
Rekor yang kelewat buruk buat orang yang di awal udah berkoar-koar mau rajin nge-blog. But what can i do?

Gak ada alasan yang jelas si.
Outline enggak. Not even a word. Jangankan word, letter pun blom.

Kerjaan?
Well, let's blame it on that!
Setelah 3-bulan-penuh-online pas magang kemaren, sekarang gw online cuma buat nge-post artikel. At least 2 a day.
jadi, on my defence, gw jadi ngerasa udah nge-blog.
Padahal mah ya beda jauh.

Ya udah. Lupakan.
Yang jelas, i'm back on a writing zone.

Selalu deh. Dibutuhkan penghancur mood atau insomnia untuk ngebuat gw nulis lagi.
For this post, i get both.

As always, ada sisi positif dari segala hal...

Review dulu ah..
last 2 months, gw balik lagi ke rutinitas kampus.
And by rutinitas i mean selalu telat dan cabut kuliah.., haha..

Padahal, this is the last semester i got this kind of full schedule.

And i believe, i'm gonna freakin miss all this.

especially all my dear friends.

yang sekarang aja udah mulai ilang2, (apa gw-nya? entahlah...)

gmana semester depan?

beberapa blog yang lalu gw sempet ngomongin soal dream...
want it, and u get it...

gw BUTUH itu sekarang...
i need a push..
an 'ON' button...

to at least let me move...
rather just stuck here like a stone.

sudahlah.
i have to stop complaining..

tapi kenapa yah, ngeluh di blog ato status tuh enak?
haha.. silly though...
but, believe me, millions people do that.

Kayak sharing penderitaan dengan orang lain yah?
atau just seeking an attention?
or maybe both.

For me,
this is what i have on my mind that need to get out.
to be written,
to be read (yeah, perhaps only really few people read this but i have my other writings that read by hundreds so i wouldnt mind... -nyombong abis... haha...)

echa's sending off...
thanks for reading my complain.
promise u a better and much more meaningful post next time... hehe..

See Ya!!!